I'm a Christian, a designer, and a gadget fan who lives in Cheltenham, UK.

This is my blog, a creative outlet to mess around and play with as well as a place that logs my thoughts and inspirations.

Change

For the last few years I’ve been pray­ing about some­thing. I’m sure many of you have as well, but this par­tic­u­lar thing has occu­pied my prayers for sev­er­al years. I’ve been pray­ing about it in the same way for pret­ty much the entire time, ask­ing for guid­ance and direc­tion in rela­tion to the thing. Dur­ing that time the urge to do that thing has grown. One could say its devel­oped into some­thing close to a per­ma­nent long­ing, some­thing that left me unset­tled because I’m not doing it and I’ve nev­er real­ly known why.
A recent con­ver­sa­tion with a very good friend left me feel­ing chal­lenged. He asked me a ques­tion and laughed at my response because it’s been the same response I’ve giv­en him for the last few years.
My response of course was to ques­tion why he was laugh­ing at me, I guess feel­ing like he was­n’t tak­ing me seri­ous. His response was one which caught me off guard. Instead of answer­ing why he was laugh­ing, he sim­ply asked me how I had been pray­ing about this thing. I told him and after a moments pause he respond­ed with a chal­lenge. Why don’t you pray about it in a dif­fer­ent way?
He com­ment­ed how that as I have been pray­ing for guid­ance this thing had grown in to a pas­sion and long­ing, that is to say some­thing more than momen­tary desire, then maybe I’d had that guid­ance and it was time to chal­lenge it.
So for the last month I’ve been pray­ing more earnest­ly and in a dif­fer­ent man­ner. Instead of request­ing guid­ance about the thing, I’ve been pray­ing: Lord, I think you want me to do this, please show me if I’m wrong.
The results have been breath tak­ing, sur­pris­ing and excit­ing all at once. A change of events has begun that, I believe, God is using to lead me into doing this thing I’ve been pray­ing about for the last few years. I’m a lit­tle appre­hen­sive, but the over rid­ing feel­ing is one of excite­ment. This post is not an announce­ment, yet, but maybe more of a watch this space…